Change Your Direction.

Just recently have I become aware of the fact that everyone goes through some sort of drastic change in their life a time or two. You see, I try and pick out the best in people.. I'm sure I get that from both of my parents! Anyways, here I am eighteen years old. Just graduated from high school and ready for whatever life brings at me. I've been in one long relationship and as much as I would like to, I can't forget it. Unfortunately it took a long time to finally say goodbye and walk away from a not so good situation. That's the thing, why do we subject ourselves to such poison? I put myself in so much pain thinking I'd walk away with happiness from. I wanted things to change so badly that I almost let my dream go. To move away and go to college and become something great. That's when I relined and questioned... "Why aren't I doing me?" Again, eighteen years old, I shouldn't have a care in the world. I shouldn't be playing house. I should be discovering who I am and where MY life is going. Not following someone who has no direction. Not letting someone walk all over my body with their sick pride! No, I need to discover my life and fill my life with what I want! So, I'm finely standing up and walking away from everything I know. 


I graduated from High School in a small town filled with nothing but rednecks and apostolic's. I really have nothing against then, it's just really not who I am! I want big things for my future. Four days after graduating, I left that town and I'm never going to look back. The past is the past and I'm learning that is where it belongs. I can't dwell on the past if I wanna work on the future. For college I'm moving in with my uncle. Just yesterday I went to the college for the first time to get information. I called my dad (my big time supporter) and he asked me, " So how exciting is this?" I startedto get tears in my eyes. I was so excited, and to think I almost let all of this sli through my hands... God I would have been crazy! Once I hear back from my college I'm head South to California. I never though I would be one to run away from my problems but I need a fresh start. To focus on me. I'm going to live in a private neighborhood and going to get to know the family on my dad's side that I've never truly known. And it's going to be amazing! This is what I need, a change.

C'est La Vie <3